I gave her a gift..well...for providing me with the idea of doing a paper collage for my 1st art experience lesson...wow!

According to Vince..in their conversation earlier they were saying " we ask Royston..I guess he'll know best...." Vince was curious so he turned back.....& was shooed...:P

Today, she seems to be in a better mood...well I am glad of course....



whilst we were walking back to class after a break during lecture today, I saw her chatting with her friends outside the classroom...

I heard her mention something..and I just turned at looked..I heard her say,"Your name is Royston ah!" to Vincent. I was puzzled...why would she mention my name out of a sudden?? So I said "I hear someone calling my name!" She said "Woah..." and then she and her friends giggled...



Back in class , there was this presentation and we had to crowd around the presentation materials whilst our classmates presented...I made the initiative and I stood behind her and Karen...They seemed to notice after a while as I notice Theresa whispering something like "someone...behind..us...blah..blah". Karen was pretending to put her head on Theresa's shoulder..and she said " Can you make urself taller??" Theresa then tiptoed....in a mock display...Karen's head was swaying from the left to the right and it was like blocking my view ...so I said "Karen, don't move ur head so much!" Karen reacted by pretending to tiptoe and sway her head, intentionally blocking me even more...Theresa said " Why don't you let her lay her head on your shoulder??" I was like "errmm.." Karen gave Theresa a nudge and tried to step on her foot...



Later, after the lecture..we were leaving the classroom and I tried to throw a piece of paper in the wastepaper basket...Theresa and her group of friends were over there...but I ignored the fact and threw the paper..it went in..so I was like "ehh!! It went i !!" The gals were like booing me in mock seriousness..."wehhhh.."



Today in the afternoon at MAYC lecture...during the break...I was leaving the classroom and Theresa was sitting outside with her group of friends (including the malays) eating anacks...Suddenly Theresa said " Royston, where are u going??" I was like "To the toilet!!??" She was like giving an "Oh I see..expression...." "you didn;t go and woo gals huh?" I just turned and gave her a wry smile...



After coming back...I made the intiative and walked up to Theresa and the group....asking "well..any nice snacks??" Theresa then remarked "You see,Wah.he keke walk over and ask for something to eat...." One of the malays (Niz I think" passed me two packets of snacks but I didn't like them so I refused gently...Then...before going into class , ramarked " Next time get better food!"

They booed...:P



That was how things went today...*sigh*

Maybe she looks at me like a dorky kind of guy, someone who is cool to make fun of.....I guess...

No..I just don't understand gals...the can be so sullen on one day..& the next day they are like so bubbly....sheeeez!

Well...today..I saw her....she does not seem to be in a good mood today....wonder what has happened..

I suddenly felt sad....



I feel great pain....being unable to walk up to her and say " Take care"...

It hurts so much.....not being able to do anything for her..not even able to show concern for her

.....



I feel exhausted...couldn't concentrate in class today....

I wonder how Vince is able to set his priorities despite the way he feels...

I was totally affected....



I hope she would always be happy....

Woohoo...quite a bit of stuff has happened today....



Well...in class today, Theresa was making comments (jokingly) when we came into class late...haha...I said Shhhh!!!

And she turns to Karen and said "Royston says Shhhhh!!" She then turns to me for a brief moment and replied " Ok afterwards one-on-one outside!" Later on...after class...when we were leaving..her friends(clique), Karen, Iris & jamie were outside and they deliberately closed the door at Theresa, leaving her stranded in the classroom...Iris and Karen were standing behind the door, using their hands to keep the door closed...I went foward and said "Come, let me help u" I stood up from my seat and opened the door...Karen & Iris were like taken aback ...Theresa was like saying " Wah, my bodyguard is so efficient !" I just looked and her and said jokingly, "Go outside, go outside!!"



Outside the classroom, I saw Theresa walking swagger...found that amusing..thus I imitated her..well she noticed and laughed...

Karen was walking over from the passageway and when she saw me she said " Wah, look at my hand..injurd already..I don't care..u better pay me a hand...!!" Well I was apologising...



Hmmm..I do not know if I should be happy..should I be?? :)

Here's my reply, but I haven't gotten a reply yet... :(





thanx dude....well anyway here's an update...



During lecture yesterday , we had a mini quiz and the answer sheets were redistributed randomly for us to mark amongst ourselves....I didn't know who got hold of my paper...until Theresa came up to me with 2 sheets of papers..one belonged to me and the other belonged to Justin, who was sitting beside me...upon receiving my answer sheet, I realised that there was this cute smiley face drawn on it...well I was rather amused...so when Theresa walked past me later in class...I asked her "Erm..Theresa..do u know who was the one who marked my paper??" She smiled warmly and replied " Well, do you find the drawing cute??"



Here's my Question:



Q:Theresa personally passed me 2 answer sheets..and one of them happened to be mine...could it be that she wants me to know that it was marked by her and that the smiley face was also drawn by her? Well she could have just passed the paper to me..but why personally walk up to me and return the papers to me??







Is there a possibility that she likes me from these actions that r being portrayed??







Advice is needed...thanx



:)

Here's another article by another kind soul out there!!





CEPHEUS4





Well dude, I've been in that situation as well: infatuated with feelings and emotions, being given contradictory signs and totally surrounded by confusion and anticipation and not knowing where to go with it all or what to do. To make things worse, you're a romantic, which is usually a good thing because it means you're part of a dieing and greatly civilized race, but in situations like these it makes things only harder. I have been in nearly your exact predicament and I too was stuck! Personally, I just rode it out. She and I drifted apart, then close, then apart again then were friendly... and it went on like that... and it sucked. So please, don't put yourself through it too. I agree with what was already said, you have to decide if she's for you or not and move on with your life, with or without her. Ultimately, my gal was not for me and she knew it the whole time... which burns me up even today, so perhaps my opinion is tainted because it's mixed with a distasteful memory. However, I stand by it, and unlike you were told, I say SLAP yourself and get a hold of the situation, don't just take a few breaths. YOU'VE GOT TO FIND OUT WHAT SHE THINKS OF YOU; friends or more, and I think this has to be done face to face. What you decide to say can be quick; it only takes a second and it doesn't have to be conspicuous. Something simple, like bring up a movie that looks cool and slip your way in to asking if she'd like to see it. Anything, just find out more now and don't let it drag on. Life's too short to get all tangled up with the feelings of love if you know that perhaps it just isn't so. You may only be setting yourself up for heartbreak, but then again, maybe not... it's up to you to find out.



Good luck my friend, I truly am rooting for you.



J

Here's my reply to his article:





thanx bro..I really appreciate it...







yesteday afternoon....I was in the bus when I saw her standing at the bus top. We made eye contact..but she just looked away ..well I was too stunned to react...couldn't smile at her at all...I guess she must have lost interest in me...do u think it it futile now for me to continue trying to approach her??







Please help

There were replies!!! ..I thank this kind soul for being helpful at least!



Here's the article by Username: KEEPONTRUCK1



Hi dude,



I say life is too short for mucking around and making headaches over relationship problems, just take a deep breath, get some confidence and either start talking to her ,at least, or ask her out.



You may say to yourself, well im not confident enough to do that. Well i had been liking a girl for the last year or so, and only recently have i said to myself 'enough is enough' and i got her email and started talking to her.



I think that she still likes you, i mean from what it sounds she doesnt flirt with anyone but you. The 'sweet incident' and the 'water bottle'. If she didnt want to do anything with you, then why did she bring it out to you.



I say, she likes you, you like her and that you should tell her how you feel.



Good luck to ya



**Not bad huh??**

Yoohoo...!



Guess what?? I posted an article at the About.com dating forum days ago!!

Ok so here's the original message:



Jul-14 2:11 am



Hi..there is this classmate of mine..we used to study in the same elementary school...but i am her senior..by one year...

What happens is that we study in the same course..and we often see each other during lectures..there are only 3 guys in the course, one has a gf, one is handsome, and the other one is plain' ol me...

She teased me once because I once had a crush on a gal from her year...I made friends with my crush but contact ended when I graduated...

This gal is called Theresa, and she tends to tease me in class, albeit indirectly...

She takes notice of me....in a way...as probably she sees me as being a goofy guy..I grew to like her as days went past....I could remember how she blushed and her sweet smile lingers in my thoughts...

Let me quote a few instances: 1.I was getting on the bus...one of her friends, Jamie, my junior at elementary school waved at me..I did not notice it..it took my friend to nudge at me before I realised that..So I said "hi Jamie!"

She, Jamie and another classmate, Iris just giggled...Ok..so the joke in on me eh??...Before getting off, i said.."yo jamie..! Bye guys!" I got off and I looked at the side windows..there I saw Theresa turning back and waving at me..her friend...Iris..just turned her head to the sida and waved with the back of her hands...

2. We were in class...sweets were being distributed...I realised i haven't gotten mine..so I turned back...somehow Jamie saw me and she nudged at Theresa..Theresa smiled at me and said " u want a sweet? Well...hold on..." She then popped the sweet into her mouth and gave me the wrapper...I was speechless..but i accepted it politely...

As I was about to turn back to my seat..she said " Here's your sweet!" With a cheeky grin, she handed me a brand new sweet...

I was thinking...hmmm...erm...well I guess before I go..I'll just wish them the best of luck for the exams.....I wanted to look suave in a way(hahaha) so after wishing them the best , I got up from my seat and strapped my backpack to my shoulder and started walking off...

But HORROR!...I forgot to take my my portable drum kit set...so i made an awkward turn and reached for the kit...and then I walked out ....

phew! I 've made it ! Suddenly...Theresa came out of the classroom and said "Royston!" I looked back and realised that I've forgotten to take my bottle of mineral water as well.....



I remembered that I've left my bottle by my seat after drinking from it during class...and if someone were to notice it...it should be Karen...who is sitting near to it! Not Theresa! She couldn't have seen it...!?

Whatever..she was the one who took it out to me!



She is a outgoing kind of gal..but she does't flirt with guys...she was from the Girls Brigade..and probably she is only outgoing to the gals...

I've never seen her talking to any of the guys....



I have grown to like her as time passes...there has been not once where I have not longed to hear her laugh, to see her smile.....

She was not my type of gal...appearnce-wise and she is not really a stunner..but then again..I feel that I like her the way she is....the natural way she looked..no makeup at all...but just a tan....



I missed her a lot during the vacation...I told myself that I had to know her better....but school has reopened...yet I wasn't able to do much to aqquaint myself to her...we are like being stucked to being "just classmates"..I really do feel sad sometimes...they say that the world's greatest distance is when she is standing in front of you and she doesn't know how much you love her...I totally know how it feels now....

She made my life different in a subtle way...I started really socialising more since I started feeling for her in that special way...probably my only wish now is to let her know how much I feel for her...



Just watching her smile makes my day....



I do not expect much...but for a chance to know what I can offer to her....



Recently I have been trying to greet her....well she smiled...but then again....but I haven't been making much progress on the whole...



In fact...i think that she has lost interest in me....



Here as I am typing...I am listening to the song..Distance from the Serendipity soundtrack..the pain aches more than ever....



Shall I give up??

Do she like me too??

How can I tell??

Do I have a chance?

What can I do???

Pls help!!



I've decided:If I do not love her I will love no one else....

Haizzzz....it's getting worst..yesterday they were some quirks...she smiled at me....I waved goodbye to her.....but NOW!

I feel really sad...well my heart is breaking!!! If only she could show something more...(as if)..well it has to be a reciprocal kind of thing right?? I am hearing the song : Distance from the Serendipity soundtrack..the lyrics r cool!! That about how I feel now....can't she see...that I like her so much??? Well..I will post the song lyrics here..



The sky has lost it's color

The sun has turned to grey

At least that's how it feels to me

Whenever you're away



I crawl up in the corner

As I watch the minutes pass

Each one brings me closer to

The time when you'll be back

You're coming back



I can't take the distance

I can't take the miles

I can't take the time

Until the next time I see you smile

I can't take the distance



And I'm not ashamed

That I can't take a breath without saying your name

I can brave a hurricane

And still be standing tall when all the dust has settled down

But I can't take the distance



I still believe in feelings

But sometimes I feel too much

I make believe you're close to me

But it ain't close enough

Not nearly close enough

Well, this shall be my diary...Okay..so I am back in school again...well...somehow...I feel that this term doesn't give us the opportunity to interact as before..well...like when we had music and dance..and stuff..that boosts camaraderie amongst us..I kinda miss those days..well they were like a 2 months ago kind of thing...haizzzz. However, I do seek opportunities to always greet my friends when I see them..just to let them know that I do cherish them as friends..:)

I guess the new school term will be a hectic one..it's like..assignments handed out on the very 1st lecture/tutorial of the term! It sure spells D.R.E.A.D to me...Guess I really have to sit down tomorrow and read thru my notes or all the stuff I've been learning the past week...Can't believe that my feelings for her has gotten stronger whilst I've not been seeing her during the hols...I missed her a lot . I didn't know how I felt then, of whether it was just infatuation....but I guess I really do feel strongly now that she someone I really would want to have as a friend....I have been confiding in Vince (my course pal) in regard my feelings and I sure did reap interesting insights from our conversations..however, I still gotta face it myself..hmm...I guess I'll gotta really feel for myself...I can't just hate myself all the time!! I gotta be more confident! I really gotta try to speak to her this time...coz really I do not want to procrastinate anymore....I mean..the CRAPPY thing is that I could speak and engage myself with most of the pple in class...but I yet I could hardly get near to her "CLIQUE", I mean they seem to have this BARB WIRE that really put them off from us(most of the classmates)...not to mention ME as an individual! However, I'll wish to give myself a chance..it wasn't easy..liking a person..I remember vividly how I felt then..and still do now...my insecurities...my doubts..contemplation...all these stuff could drive me mad...Ok..new resolution! I'll have to start it off being her friend...I MUST!! AND I WILL!! I will not think too much..I will just DO IT!! Okay...well I'll stop for now..(I guess I have to really sort up my thoughts soon..before I can write in a more systematic way?? I see myself jumping into this chapter of my life..without even introducing myself..$#$^% ..heck..I will not be too formalised here..this is where I throw my thoughts anyway) :P