It is Theresa's birthday tomorrow and I've given her a present today..sheesh..I could actually remember the wrong date of her birthday and msged her last night to wish her happy birthday..I even shot myself in the leg when I made a mess out of the piggy bank which I intended to paint and give to her...it looked like a monstrous mix of toxic blue and startling pink..>=( Anyways..I was kinda sad when came to the realisation that, whatever I do for her...I'll always be a friend. No more than that. Silly me, I should have known...perhaps reality is hard to accept...



Often, in msgs, Theresa would usually address me as E.g. "all the best, friend" This word makes me feel *arrrgh*. It is as if an imaginary line in between drawn that says "I appreciate you, but I'll need to remind you that I am not "available" and I hope not to lead you on". *tears at hair*



Anyways..I bought her a gift, which I feel bears a significant meaning. It is basically a Fisher-Price toy and is meant for children ages 18 mths and above...It is known as the "Box of Opposites" I had the concept of doing notes that would represent each of the sides of the cube, such as the Top, Bottom, Front/Back,Over/Under,Day/Night...

On the notes, I wrote personal sayings of my view on things related to the headings..E.g. What the word "Top" means to me...



She msged me back, praised me for the innovative idea..of transforming an ordinary toy into something refreshingly different and meaningful...Well..I am glad that she liked the present!~=)



Oh, in regard to the the long awaited photograph that I requested from Yoke Sum (ECH IT Coordinator), I finally saw Belinda(my CS 1.1 lecturer in year 1) today and gotten it. It is *rolls drum* nothing else but a picture of Theresa during the Price giving ceremony of the academically outstanding students last semester..no suprise as she's a very intelligent and hardworking gal hor...xD *is ashamed of myself* >_<



Well....*sigh*...this is it. Possibly my last birthday gift for her...

Here's a poem that I've gotten from an e-mail..I think it is great...=)



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The Rose





Some say love, it is a river

That drowns the tender reed

Some say love, it is a razor

That leaves your soul to bleed



Some say love, it is a hunger

An endless aching need

I say love, it is a flower

And you its only seed



It's the soul afraid of dreaming,

That never learns to dance

And the soul afraid of waking,

That never takes the chance



It's the one, who won't be taken

Who cannot seem to give

And the soul afraid of dying,

That never learns to live



When the night has been too lonely

And the road has been too long

When you feel that love is only

For the lucky and the strong



Just remember in the winter

far beneath the bitter snow,

Lies a seed, that with the sun's love,

in the spring becomes a rose



Amanda McBroom



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Hmmm...attachment to my centre at Metropolitan YMCA childcare centre has begun and I've been there for three days..it was a really interesting and insightful experience..I'v e got to know my mentor and the K1 children, who were smart, fun and very cute~! =)

KiDs sMarTs 0_0





TEACHER: What is the chemical formula for water?

SARAH: "HIJKLMNO"!!

TEACHER: What are you talking about?

SARAH: Yesterday you said it's H to O!



Teacher: "George Washington not only chopped down his father's Cherry

tree, but also admitted doing it. Now do you know why his father didn't punish him?"

Johnny : "Because George still had the axe in his hand."



Teacher : What a pair of strange socks you are wearing, one is green and one is blue with red spots!

Kirk : Yes it's really strange. I've got another pair of the same at home.

This is a good one...That's the problem with guys... sigh.. heh. :P




A girl's account:



"He was in an odd mood Saturday night. We planned to meet at a pub for a drink. I spent the afternoon shopping with the girls and I thought it might have been my fault because I wasa bit later than I promised, but he didn't say anything much about it. The conversation was very slow going so I thought we should go off somewhere more intimate so we could talk a bit more privately. We went to this restaurant and he was STILL acting a bit funny. I tried to cheer him up and started to wonder whether it was me or something else. I asked him, and he said no. But I wasn't really sure. So anyway, in the car on the way back home, I said that I loved him deeply and he just put his arm around me. I didn't know what the hell that meant because you know he didn't say it back or anything, this was really worrying me. "



"We finally got back home and I was wondering if he was going to leave me! So I tried to get him to talk but he just switched on the TV, and sat with a distant look in his eyes that seemed to say it's all over between us. Reluctantly, I said I was going to go to bed. Then after about 10 minutes, he joined me and to my surprise, he responded to my advances . But, he still seemed really distracted, so afterwards I just wanted to confront him but I just cried myself to sleep. I just don't know what to do anymore. I mean, I really think he's seeing someone else and that my life is a disaster."




His Side of the Story:

ENGLAND lost to Brazil

Arrrgh..I'm feeling lerthargic, stressed, depressed...and no one seems to understand!! I just wanted some time out allo f a sudden and my mum came into the room and requested to play the neopets game...I told her that I would like to rest and needed some time alone, then she got offended...she said that "if you think that I'm disturbing you, then you are selfish.."

I felt guilty of course and I went up to her and told her that she could use it now..she was still angry so she refused to budge..I told her, "Are you trying to make me guilty?" My dad overheard the conversation and he decided to budge in..he was insensitive and self-righteous, thinking that I was so-called bullying my mum...I explained to him how I was feeling and he refused to listen..he said thing's like "You should get the com out of your room or keep it in your room and not complain of pple using it""This is a public com, not your personal com!" I was really feeling frustrated and just then, Vince called me in regard to the project...I lost myself for a while..I pulled my hair and let out a frustrated sigh...gosh..can now understand how Vince felt when he had his outbursts in the past..>=(



Well..now..I just wanna slump onto my bed for 5 min...l



Later.

^o^ Kawaii ne~




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*Sigh* I'm at home today....doin' my own stuff and listening to sentimental songs...I was thinking about what Vince, Juz and Averil told me yesterday....



I have this sinking feeling in me that tells me that it is a one-sided..of me liking Theresa..it feels so disappointing when I think of that...I didn't know get to know her enough..so what is the big deal if I felt so much for her..it is not enough...not enough at all...sometimes Love ain't enough.



I wish to tell her that I still cherish her, and that my feelings for her are still the same..but on the other hand..I feel stupid..how in the world can I expect to do that..when we are only friends...it hurts. But I've always believed that love is an effort..it is not necessary easy and light...it took effort from me..at least this is how I feel...



I've started losing Faith between she and I because I felt that we were not meant to be...Fate between us died a premature end...I told myself that perhaps..or even..definitely..she is not the one for me...and I tried moving on....



The hope in me of even being with her has died.



I've lost my chance..lost her.



Still..I wish to ask her..if she had ever considered me as someone she could love...when I told her that I liked her..that is something I've always wanted to know..it is a knot in my heart...



I miss the times...when I spoke to her through the phone..she was so tender...and I felt st that moment...that I'll not let her feel alone anymore...



There was hope then..so much more hope...but it ends...in silence.



The guys suggested that I should tell her how I really feel...but I'm feeling apprehensive about it..I do not think it'll help...



Well..I'll wait...till Fate shows me the road to love again..Cest la Vie'



Honestly..I'm not too hopeful. =P