Where has it gone to?

The joy and hope of embracing each morning, the moment I wake to the beautiful sunrise...

Where is the rush of adrenaline, the excitement of the world?

Where is the idyllic setting?

The carefree walks along the coast? With no regard to time?

Where are the people?

Where is it?

Where is she?

The one that I've waited so long for, and is still pining for?

Sianz...tomorrow must go outfield again!!!!!!! Pfft.

Lately, I've been feeling rather desensitized.

It's as though my body and mental attitude has been so attuned to this current way, that, I hardly remember myself before my enlistment.

Was I an optimistic person?

Naive?

Polite?

Disciplined?

Courteous?

Sincere?

What was it back then that made my life interesting and meaningful?

We are so engulfed in our day-to-day activities, trying to get work done; how often are we allowed to stop by as we reflect on our thoughts and actions?

There are times whereby, after booking out of camp, I would walk back home instead, rather than to take the bus.

I'll put my earphones on and listen to some of my favorite music.

A nice stroll home, that is.

I'll discover things that I'll usually not notice, and I thrive in this sort of exploration. I am inspired to write.

Although I consider myself a sentimental person; these days I do not feel like one.

I've become rather task-oriented. Making decisions wih my mind and not my heart.

I'm so set into this "offensive" gear, trying to psyche myself for anything to come. This reflects even in the manner I walk and behave.

Have I become so desensitized?

Where did that sensitive, thoughtful and introspective self go to?

Do I consider this part of me important anymore?
It seems that I'm beginning to take it for granted...

I love to read, I'll like to explore the world out there.

I would also like to take a sentimental trip to my favorite hangouts.

With no worries. Nothing to remind me.

That I'm still a soldier.

Or worse. As someone who hasn't moved on.

I need to be at peace. I feel the motivation to embrace life in a deeper level.

To pursue my passion. To be motivated and not only just driven.

Life shall not always be so mundane and boring.

That is the life that I'll forsake soon.

Challenges await, but I'll not falter.

I'll strive on.

Watched Mission Impossible III yesterday and hung out with my army pals, Celester,Jiangzheng, Hongwei, Wenzheng, Kai Loon, Bryan and his girlfriend.

It was a fun experience as it has been a while since I last went out with a big group of them...=)

MI 3 is fantastic!

It's the kind of movie that keeps you at the edge of the seat...=)

Woah, and sidetracking here,my computer's hard-disk is certainly dying a slow death.

And that prompted me to get a ventilator fan from Sim Lim Square for my CPU.

Hoping that it'll help. But I've yet to install it, together with my new hard-disk..

ORD functions is over. Finally.

Looks like there's something up for me again. Army stuff.

But fret not, just a bit more and it'll be all over.

Commanders who can't lead with decisiveness and humility are disappointing.

Apparently, speech is already a problem for this certain individual. To be unable to enunciate and express himself coherently is pathetic..

A biased attitude doesn't help either. So much for being a commander.

Or perhaps the ranking system has created mistakes with incompetent people like you?

He needs to reflect on his attitude and actions.

Are you an ostrich?

Saying something incoherent, and then stick your head into the sand.

Whilst you are doing so, you pray that somehow somewhat, a miracle will occur...

And that, when you finally pull you head out of the sand, everything will be already done nicely for you?

Can't you work at the level with you fellow "compatriots"?

Do not use threats to psyche you "compatriots" to work doubly hard, just to make things work for you.

Try using appreciation. Or rewards.

Perhaps you need to be studying again.

Go on a moral course. Or get taught about it eventually.

Remember. You are not always "up" there. Rank is nothing.

Nothing in the eyes of a civilian.

Be humble or you'll get burnt.

I for one, will vindicate you.



One phrase: Lead, follow or Get out of my way!

Finally cleared IPPT!

Life can be pretty ironic, ain't it?

ORD function. You are supposed to be presented with an evening of fun performances and dining for the would-be "ORD"ing soldiers...However. you realize that you can't!

You are given this responsibility to prepare something instead.

Plenty of sweat and toil follows. You contribute every ounce of your effort.

However. You have been already been robbed.

Robbed of this othewise relaxing and enjoyable performance that is irrevocably meant for you.

And you are supposed to be entertained and be enjoying yourself on that day?!

Hahah. Sounds like a sad situation here.

Life in XXXXXX camp is really boring.

I feel as if I am strapped to a tree.

A thousand arrows are being pointed at me.

IPPT is tomorrow. Gambatte kudasigh.

This is all that I'm bothered.

How many more days till I leave this place?

4th May 2006

Mark this day!

I am finally getting my braces done! Went to EmBrace Dental Clinic at Orchard International Building for my consultation today and finalised to get braces.

Basically, and X-ray was taken of my front and side view of my jaw.

After that a mould was made for my teeth, followed by a photo-taking session!

Erm, its a half body photoshoot of my front side and 45 degrees, meant for the BEFORE and AFTER look.

Anyway, I'll have to extract 4 tooths in a total. Two at the top and 2 at the bottom.

Pain awaits.

Nevertheless, I feel glad. Finally I am getting something done. =D