Tribute to my beloved Pug : Pui Pui

Today, my dearest and most loved Pug, Pui Pui passed away from a sudden heart attack.

I miss her so much...the familiar places and items in the house, are all void of her energetic presence.

She was so adorable, lovable and I truly loved her with every ounce of my being.

I held her in my arms has she made the last few gasps for air...

As I have taken her into my arms on the day I adopted her, she was in my arms when she left.

This is the only comfort that I get...to know that while I held her tightly and patted her head, and said "Good Girl ah", she fell into her eternal slumber...

I had a final moment with her, together with my dad, as she lay on the steel table, looking like a child sleeping soundly; she had a peaceful expression, and as I kissed her forehead, I whispered into her ears, "Pui, don't worry, as you have made your way up first, I'll be joining you ...one day on the other side.

I pray to God, oh Father, that you may grant her an eternal place, where she will be happy, eating her favorite food and running around energetically.

I love you Pui, and you are a part of me and will always be in my memories.

Rest in Peace my cute lil' pug, may we meet again.

Do not stand at my grave and weep.
I am not there, I do not sleep.
I am a thousand winds that blow,
I am the diamond glints on snow.
I am the sunlight on ripened grain,
I am the gentle autumn's rain.
When you awaken in the morning's hush,
I am the swift uplifting rush
of quiet birds in circled flight.
I am the stars that shine at night.
Do not stand at my grave and cry,
I am not there, I did not die...

-Anonymous

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I need to move on!

I need to break new ground this year.

Fulfill my priorities.

Take on an active "doing" mindset.

Keep a focus.




Emmanuelle.

It's my birthday today!


Had a usual day at work.

None of my colleagues knew it haha, and I felt I didn't have to say it.

Caroline remembered and bought me a slice of chocolate fudge cake, and I am really happy :)

Much appreciation to those who posted their birthday wishes through facebook, I had msgs from secondary sch friends and army friends that I lost touch with. It is such a pleasant surprise! ^__^

Thank you Hanrong,Vince,Dad and Mum and Guangsheng for the lovely smses :D

Thank you Father, Lord Jesus, for never giving up on me, and for your grace and love.

I would be nothing without you, you gave me what I have and you guided me every single step of the way.

I am but just a weed swaying in the wind, but you paid attention to me, and let me feel like I mean the world to you. Thank you for your love.




I am older now.

As time unfolds, you begin to view the world in a different light.

I have hit the same old wall again.






And Lord, I seek your wisdom and grace.


I can only offer one thing through all this helplessness.

My faith.

God's promises

I believe that you are referring to God, Bob.


"Only once in your life, I truly believe, you find someone who can completely turn your world around. You tell them things that you’ve never shared with another soul and they absorb everything you say and actually want to hear more. You share hopes for the future, dreams that will never come true, goals that were never achieved and the many disappointments life has thrown at you. When something wonderful happens, you can’t wait to tell them about it, knowing they will share in your excitement. They are not embarrassed to cry with you when you are hurting or laugh with you when you make a fool of yourself. Never do they hurt your feelings or make you feel like you are not good enough, but rather they build you up and show you the things about yourself that make you special and even beautiful. There is never any pressure, jealousy or competition but only a quiet calmness when they are around. You can be yourself and not worry about what they will think of you because they love you for who you are. The things that seem insignificant to most people such as a note, song or walk become invaluable treasures kept safe in your heart to cherish forever.

Memories of your childhood come back and are so clear and vivid it’s like being young again. Colours seem brighter and more brilliant. Laughter seems part of daily life where before it was infrequent or didn’t exist at all. A phone call or two during the day helps to get you through a long day’s work and always brings a smile to your face. In their presence, there’s no need for continuous conversation, but you find you’re quite content in just having them nearby.

Things that never interested you before become fascinating because you know they are important to this person who is so special to you. You think of this person on every occasion and in everything you do. Simple things bring them to mind like a pale blue sky, gentle wind or even a storm cloud on the horizon. You open your heart knowing that there’s a chance it may be broken one day and in opening your heart, you experience a love and joy that you never dreamed possible. You find that being vulnerable is the only way to allow your heart to feel true pleasure that’s so real it scares you. You find strength in knowing you have a true friend and possibly a soul mate who will remain loyal to the end. Life seems completely different, exciting and worthwhile. Your only hope and security is in knowing that they are a part of your life."
— Bob Marley

What's the point of giving so much when people never appreciate you for what you've done?

All that sincerity, and care, it just goes out of the window.

It is my deepest fear to be take for granted.

To feel that you are not even significant enough to others and that they can conveniently leave you out...

To give is to risk.


I'm really afraid to do so these days.


You never know when betrayal comes in.