Kiri : Monoral


You complete my fate
the word unwinds inside of me
You complete my fate
The halo crawls away
You refill my place
You refill my place
Come and save me
Come and save me
Come and save me

Come for me and take my heart and take my breath away

Been some time.


I wonder what I can talk about.


>=3


I've bought new watch yesterday. A G-shock watch. And it is high time that I started wearing a watch. :)

Trying to remind myself not to procrastinate too much as well. For this school term, I've got to handle my assignments better!

I guess I need to blog.

Its been quite a while, since I am always fearful of sharing myself too much.

I am afraid things are no going to be good for me.

From the look of it, I will be hitting a huge barrier ahead.

I could live a life of despair and give up, with all these fears weighing on me. But I can't be the way I used to be anymore.

I gave up more than once and failed countless times. Sure, evryone goes through the same problems.

I agree.

I shouldn't stay this way.

I believed I've hurt those who were the closest to me, due to my insensitivity and self-centredness.

What have I been doing?

I reflect briefly on my past year.

Have I lived truly? Or was I trying to live to survive, since I view the world in such a contradictory way, I am afraid I do not know it myself

Hope can be uplifting. However I was never able to grasp the meaning of all that.
I never did understand why I was given grace.

I never took it and cherished it.

And it slips past my fingers tme and time again.

I thought I was in dire traits, bad times, crises and all that.

Who was I to lament?

I am just a piece in a huge plan.

To trust requires faith.
To have faith requires trust.

I do not know what to do about this, yet I am not willing to seek the knowledge to deal with it.

I am unable to face my defeat, and neither the determination to challenge my fears.

I am living contradictory life and it eats me up.

What to do now?

I must fight!

Just keep thinking...concentrate!!!!

Keep fighting!!!!!!!!!!!

been a long road to follow
been there and gone tomorrow
without saying goodbye to yesterday
are the memories I hold still valid?
or have the tears deluded them?
maybe this time tomorrow
the rain will cease to follow
and the mist will fade into one more today
something somewhere out there keeps calling
am I going home?
will I hear someone singing solace to the silent moon?
zero gravity what's it like?
am I alone?
is somebody there beyond these heavy aching feet
still the road keeps on telling me to go on
something is pulling me

I feel the gravity of it all

A beautiful excerpt from a beautiful post. From Sam's blog.

It is important to note that friendship love is grounded in reality. This begins with the absence of idealization. The great weakness of romantic love is that lovers see each other through the unrealistic lens of idealization. This is, of course, why romantic love is unstable. Eventually reality sets in and shatters the unrealistic perceptions of the loved one.

True friends, in contrast, see each other realistically. Because they know each other so well, they know the weaknesses that are hidden from the view of those at a distance. This awareness, however, does not diminish the respect, affection and admiration that they feel. But they are not prone to idolization. Friends are not fascinated by each other. Nor are they awestruck. They know each other not by the outer garb of persona but by the dependable and relatively stable elements of habit, character, disposition and trait. It is this down-to-earth quality of friendships that gives them stability and endurance. They may be unromantic, but they are anchored in reality.

Viva Friendship.

I discovered that people are not really afraid of dying; they're afraid of not ever having lived, not ever having deeply considered their life's higher purpose, and not ever having stepped into that purpose and at least tried to make a difference in this world." - Joseph Jaworski

This rings truth to me.

I need to find an answer.

I do.