Well, just had the deep desire to express how I feel about things recently.

I kinda fell out with my buddy of 8 years. Haven't contacted or spoke to him for more than one and a half months.

It's my fault for taking trust for granted, for being so self-centered.

I am ashamed to talk to him and yet so yearning for answers.

I am also witnessing a separation from my christian friends.

There's many thoughts, questions in my head that is unanswered.

I'm also feeling ashamed of the friend I am to my friends in cell-group. I have started off at a bad footing since Christmas eve last year, and many rifts has been caused.

I know that it is my ignorance that led of this.

I did not appreciate people.

I loaned money without returning on time, thus betraying their trust.

Right now, I feel like this vindicated person.

And I have misunderstandings with them as well.

It's hard to say, being ignorant, and I can only guess that I am being viewed in negative light as a person.

I'm untrustworthy, selfish.

This distance has been causing a rift in my relationships.

I feel disconnected and out of touch.

And daily, I pray about the redemption and reconciliation that I so yearn for.

All I know now is that I am working hard to make myself a person worth trusting again, debts are being cleared and I am trying my best to be a better person.

There's all it is to it.

Putting myself all out, and hoping that someone will listen.

God, I pray for the clarity of being. I pray for your wisdom.

And I pray that for courage, to accept that things change.

Nothing much has changed, really.


A long overdued decision.


For a paradigm shift.

Alas. Nothing much has changed

Looking back at my older blog entries, I discovered certain aspects of my thoughts that ironically reflected those of my current mindset.

It seemed that after so long....


I was still walking around in circles.

Get to know yourself better Quiz -

Your view on yourself:

You are down-to-earth and people like you because you are so straightforward. You are an efficient problem solver because you will listen to both sides of an argument before making a decision that usually appeals to both parties.

The type of girlfriend/boyfriend you are looking for:

You are a true romantic. When you are in love, you will do anything and everything to keep your love true.

Your readiness to commit to a relationship:

You are ready to commit as soon as you meet the right person. And you believe you will pretty much know as soon as you might that person.

Your views on education

Education is very important in life. You want to study hard and learn as much as you can.

The right job for you:

You're a practical person and will choose a secure job with a steady income. Knowing what you like to do is important. Find a regular job doing just that and you'll be set for life.

How do you view success:

You are afraid of failure and scared to have a go at the career you would like to have in case you don't succeed. Don't give up when you haven't yet even started! Be courageous.
What are you most afraid of:

You are afraid of having no one to rely on in times of trouble. You don't ever want to be unable to take care of yourself. Independence is important to you.
Who is your true self:

You are mature, reasonable, honest and give good advice. People ask for your comments on all sorts of different issues. Sometimes you might find yourself in a dilemma when trapped with a problem, which your heart rather than your head needs to solve.

*** Disclaimer: This taken from the multiply article of Andrew Tetangco of the Philippines***

" Before I start, let me try to define what "cosplay" is.

The term "cosplay" doesn't have an exact meaning. If you try to look it up through Wikipedia, it is defines as "a type of performance art whose participants outfit themselves, with often-elaborate costumes and accessories, as a specific character." Simply put, cosplay is when people dress up as their favorite characters, whether be it anime, movies, and such.

I would also say that cosplay should not be mistaken for a costume party, like what is done in Halloween. Cosplaying, and just wearing a costume, are of different levels, although both wear costumes. For me, cosplaying has more dedication to the character details, or in other words, you really become the character when you cosplay.

Now, in regards to cosplay, there are also different people, and different styles in cosplay. Easily noticed are the mecha cosplayers. They are the people who dedicate time, resources and concentration on building massive costumes imitating robots, whether it be Gundam, Transformers, Macross' Variable Fighters, and Super Sentai mecha.

There are then some that cosplay Western comic book characters. Whether it be Iron Man, Batman, Wonder Woman, and such. Sometimes they also try to put in more detail, and they try to push it to the limit, like making Iron Man's hands, chest and even his eyes glow.

There are some, like me, who prefer cosplaying tokusatsu characters. Tokusatsu is a type of Japanese live-action TV show, which features the lead characters transforming into costumed heroes. Examples of such shows are from the Kamen Rider, Ultraman and Super Sentai franchise. Some would make their own helmets, buy toys for their props, and some would even go as far as having a custom-made helmet.

Another would be cosplayers who imitate movie characters. They can be anyone, from Jason Voorhees, or even The Mask. I was impressed with one cosplayer, who did a Darth Vader cosplay. He had the suit custom-made, but his helmet and lightsaber were authentic Star Wars merchandise. The lightsaber itself was a master replica.

One type of cosplay that I like to see, but sometimes I would need reminding who he or she is, are video game cosplayers. It's been a long time since I've been updated with new games, and I haven't played any MMORPG lately, since I don't have the time anymore. The cool thing about video game cosplayers would be that sometimes, they would go as far as imitating the moves that the characters make.

A rare type of cosplayer would be the "crossplayers," or cosplay crossdressers. They are really not that rare, but they are sometimes not easily noticed, specially since some crossplayers are so good, you don't know they are crossdressing already. But a note to this: just because a person does a crossplay, doesn't mean they are gay. They do it either because they love the character, or just for kicks. Sometimes male crossplayers are so good, some people mistake them for real girls, and are asked for their phone numbers.

And we come to the part of the cosplay community that, for me, has the biggest population: anime and manga cosplay. From my point of view, that's how cosplay started here, when anime and manga fanatics tried to dress-up as their favorite characters. Anime has the bigger influence among kids and kids at heart, that's why anime cosplayers are more common, as far as I can see.

There are also some rare chances that some would cosplay something out of the ordinary, but I'm not saying it's a bad thing. Take for example the J-pop costumes, or like Vocaloid's Hatsune Miku, or some that wear maid costumes.

...and we now finaly come to the topic that I wanted to bring up: Is there such a person as a "low class cosplayer?"

I think not.

It all boils down to how people interpret the costume, or the character, and how people like it. Not all people has the same exact interests.

Take for example, the tokusatsu genre. Few people know of it, fewer people appreciate it. There were some people who laughed at our Power Rangers cosplay last November 2008, during the Hataw Hanep Hero: the AMPED Edition, saying that it was "corny." But we still continue what we like, and it just goes to show that "one man's food is another man's poison."

Let me also say that I'm no exeption to this. I myself rarely take pics of Naruto cosplayers, although I am still a Naruto fan.

There are also some cosplayers that will look less satisfactory to some people. Let me try to make some examples, like a chubby Lockon Stratos, a crossdressed Usagi Tsukino, or a cardboard Kamen Rider Den-O Sword Form.

I've also noticed that the people who laugh at cosplay, most of the time, are non-cosplayers. Sometimes they are the event-goers that attend conventions for cusiousity's sake, or they are just simply passers-by. That, I can understand, since they don't understand how we love what we do, but it still hurts when that happens. No one wants to see anyone getting laughed at.

What I'm trying to say is that, there are cosplayers that have their own way of presenting their love for the art, plus how they love the character that they are portraying. There is no reason for someone to call another "low class," or anything similar.

Most of us cosplayers belong to one community. Let the people who don't understand, or those who don't want to understand, laugh at us. But hopefully, within ourselves, there will be no more discrimination. Besides, cosplay should be fun... ^_^"

This is a very nice article, I agree in many ways. ^___^

I hate it when I am only compelled to blog today...after so many months, because I was just looking for somewhere to vent my frustration.


Mr Otosan came up challenging me again...

some chinese imperialist doctrine he subscribes to, which is obvious as what imperialism is, all about power and might.

I'm sorry, Mr Otosan, but your "iron fist" mentality of exerting control doesn't work; in fact, it is one of the prime reasons for the social unrest that the world is experiencing today.

Please refrain from begging the question, and on only provided a sheltered standpoint in your arguments.

It's such a cheap method of arguing, well, let's just say

1. State all negative aspects of "A"
2. Reiterate your judgment on its flaws and try to provide some examples
3. Place a ultimate statement, which defines your blatant bias.

And all in his while, you aren't listening, but merely placing assumptions.

Is He is an "aryan"

Does that make him not TRUTH to you.

So you beleieve in the doctrime which came from your motherhand.

The doctrine that speaks of peace at the expense of TRUTH?

I will not stoop to your level and engage in your petty talk.

So please, as you may, keep these thoughts for yourself.

Yours Sincerely,
The Son

Happy Valentines' Day~!!