Reminiscence

 I am back to the point which I started off.

Indeed life can be really ironic.

After all this time, the years that has passed by...

Nothing changes.

I am still me.

I still feel lousy about myself.

Am I still sensitive and does guilt still hold into my life?

Am I a good person?

Am I only seen to be of value only for what I offer?

Indeed I am replaceable.

This is the reality.

Eventually...time forgets all things... memories of my existence will be transient in the memories of man.

The equation I've made is that...if I cease to exist...

There will be no need for disappointment, of falling short, of being an ideal...

A tale of a boy. A man. Someone who has tried his utmost to love and do his best. 

Lost amid the pages of many storied lives...

The meaning to this day

It's Christmas here in Singapore time!!!

Many people associate Christmas to this jolly dude ^


or

Gifts


But...


It is really about....

The Birth of our Father, Lord and Savior, Jesus Christ.

 We continue to celebrate today because with the coming of "Immanuel," God with us, God has continued to be "with us" as he walked the earth, communing with us, and with the Holy Spirit that continues to be our constant comforter. Such a  gift of love, the gift of eternal life. 

What greater gift could we ask for?

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 A CHRISTMAS PRAYER

Loving Father, Help us remember the birth of Jesus,
that we may share in the song of the angels,
the gladness of the shepherds,
and worship of the wise men.

Close the door of hate and open the door of love all over the world. Let kindness come with every gift and good desires with every greeting. Deliver us from evil by the blessing which Christ brings, and teach us to be merry with clear hearts.

May the Christmas morning make us happy to be thy children, and Christmas evening bring us to our beds with grateful thoughts, forgiving and forgiven, for Jesus' sake. Amen.
 
Robert Louis Stevenson

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 Come, let us praise the Lord!
Let’s shout praises to the Rock, who saves us.
~ Psalm 95:1


I love you Jesus, my father, my rock and my comforter, thank you for always being there for me.







 

It's December 21th, 2012 now.....



IS IT AS FORSEEN AS THE TURNING POINT IN THE WORLD?

Well, at least it is the time of the prophecy according to my side of the clock in Singapore.



Just another day?

Or will I sense a change?

A paradigm shift perhaps?




2 Corinthians 12:10 Therefore I am well content with weaknesses, with insults, with distresses, with persecutions, with difficulties, for Christ's sake; for when I am weak, then I am strong.

Haha, it was my 29th Birthday on 9th December, yesterday.:)


Looking back...

2012. A year of trials and tribulations...

Life was in shambles, loss of hope and a despair for the future...

That, however will change come 2013.

Let this be a reminder of a fruitful year come 2013.


CARPE DIEM!!!


Just feel blessed to have my parents by my side, though I do not credit them enough...

And my dear friends who were there for me...not many of them, but they are so important in the significance that they have brought to my life.

I hope that I can be a beacon of light to them as they were to me...

God I ask for peace, a sense of renewal and growth from my 29th year of existence onwards...

A deeper responsibility to my life and those around me whom I value and cherish.

And a chance to embrace life in the growing ways of my development...

To be the person that I can best be.

Myself.


Emmanuel.

Tribute to my beloved Pug : Pui Pui

Today, my dearest and most loved Pug, Pui Pui passed away from a sudden heart attack.

I miss her so much...the familiar places and items in the house, are all void of her energetic presence.

She was so adorable, lovable and I truly loved her with every ounce of my being.

I held her in my arms has she made the last few gasps for air...

As I have taken her into my arms on the day I adopted her, she was in my arms when she left.

This is the only comfort that I get...to know that while I held her tightly and patted her head, and said "Good Girl ah", she fell into her eternal slumber...

I had a final moment with her, together with my dad, as she lay on the steel table, looking like a child sleeping soundly; she had a peaceful expression, and as I kissed her forehead, I whispered into her ears, "Pui, don't worry, as you have made your way up first, I'll be joining you ...one day on the other side.

I pray to God, oh Father, that you may grant her an eternal place, where she will be happy, eating her favorite food and running around energetically.

I love you Pui, and you are a part of me and will always be in my memories.

Rest in Peace my cute lil' pug, may we meet again.

Do not stand at my grave and weep.
I am not there, I do not sleep.
I am a thousand winds that blow,
I am the diamond glints on snow.
I am the sunlight on ripened grain,
I am the gentle autumn's rain.
When you awaken in the morning's hush,
I am the swift uplifting rush
of quiet birds in circled flight.
I am the stars that shine at night.
Do not stand at my grave and cry,
I am not there, I did not die...

-Anonymous

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I need to move on!

I need to break new ground this year.

Fulfill my priorities.

Take on an active "doing" mindset.

Keep a focus.




Emmanuelle.

It's my birthday today!


Had a usual day at work.

None of my colleagues knew it haha, and I felt I didn't have to say it.

Caroline remembered and bought me a slice of chocolate fudge cake, and I am really happy :)

Much appreciation to those who posted their birthday wishes through facebook, I had msgs from secondary sch friends and army friends that I lost touch with. It is such a pleasant surprise! ^__^

Thank you Hanrong,Vince,Dad and Mum and Guangsheng for the lovely smses :D

Thank you Father, Lord Jesus, for never giving up on me, and for your grace and love.

I would be nothing without you, you gave me what I have and you guided me every single step of the way.

I am but just a weed swaying in the wind, but you paid attention to me, and let me feel like I mean the world to you. Thank you for your love.




I am older now.

As time unfolds, you begin to view the world in a different light.